LoL

I hope she didn't put a spell on me or some shit. I fucking ran out of there. I didn't want a curse and I didn't want to get shot with a fucking tactical combat shotgun so I just decided to keep walking.

Still....it was lulzy. I can't wait to talk to her again. It will be full of awekwardness and wonderful uncomfortableness. I love it...

Tonight

Alright. So I hung out with the guys tonight. I was supposed to hang out with Molly, but she had other planz. Oh well. Chris canceled on me last min. He says it's because I didn't give him an exact time in the day. So he filled it completely. I am flexible but I can't just do it at night. What a great guy.

Random thoughts

I feel bad for Mr. Senal. He doesn't deserve all this shit. He deserves the world but life just fucks him in the ass. I don't get it. I'm just pissed that things didn't go his way. I can relate to him, but fuck. I think that just around the next metaphysical corner, something awesome is in store for him.

On another note, Fuck my job, and jesus christ girl, STOP IT! YOU KNOW IT'LL JUST FUCK THINGS UP LATER!!!

*facepalm

The end.

Mr. Senal

I love my buddy Hal. He's a good guy and no one really gives him the credit he deserves. Man am I glad I met him. He's got a really good head on his shoulders. He also really knows how to be a good loyal friend. I cherish you sir. I really like most of his friends too. Kevin, Justin, Clark, and Tina to just name a few. I am glad I found you guys. I forsee much fun in our future.

Yeah

Today was a good day. The calm after the storm so to speak.

Nicole had her grad party today. It was nice. I hung out with the guys and then Mollerskates and then Andy to end the night. Overall, things went pretty nice. I'm still pissed about my shoes though...

Rain

Rain rain, go away.
Torment another in some other way.
I'm tired of this feeling,
Of darkness and dread.
I want to wake up for once, and not wish I were dead.
It isn't because of something, or anyone else,
Since January, I just feel an emptiness.
I'm tired of this storm, I want the rain to stop.
I'm so tired of all this, My body is going to just drop.
So here's to another day of sitting in the rain.
As another day slips down into the drain.

Roundabout

I have that song stuck in my head ^


It's stormy right now. I hate storms because my mind is fucked. :(

Oh, I think I am going to make a big mistake very soon...

Hopefully I wise up during my sleepytime.

Don't want to work tomorrow.

Dick tastes weird.

I am writing this with one eye shut. I don't understand why people do the things they do. Makes me sad. Why do people toy with other people? Why are people selfish? Why do people fuck over others? Why are all the evil doers so inviting?

Damn, I'm tired.


P.S. Hal, I want to eat sushi with you and make you happy. If I were a girl or a guy that liked dick, I would be your man. :D

:/

I am okay. I am surprized, but yeah. I am okay. She flip-flopped a bit too much for me. She likes me, she likes me not. I'm tired of feeling like someone likes me sometimes. I need to be appreciated for who I am. I may be weird, not too bright, freakishly tall, fat, a loser and hairy, but I'd make a fucking kick ass boyfriend and I'm tired of being fucked over. Fuck you and I am glad to find someone who will appreciate me for who I am.

Yep.

It's really hard to read my last entry.

My feelings are put out there pretty clearly on xanga.

I just don't know what they want...

www.xanga.com/three4dale

Sappy shit. Don't have to read if you guys don't want to.

:)

I feel kinda fuzzy inside. I don't ever think I have had that before. It's weird. I like it, it's just weird. I have always hated dating and I have always not really enjoyed hanging out with my date most of the time. It was always awkward and I was just trying to get thought the dating part to get to a relationship.

This time around, it's different. I really like the dating. I REALLY like dating her. I am not rushing into a relationship, I'm enjoying it. I like hanging out with her, and when she's there, my stomach isn't in a knot, it's warm and happy. It is just weird because I have never felt like that before.

It sucks because I want to tell all my friends about it and be happy that I can finally experience this, but I can't. Almost all of my friends are dealing with girl issues right now. Jeremy and Kallie broke up. Joel and Joie broke up. Kaitlyn left for New Zealand for 4 months and left Chris behind, Sterling is having problems I'm sure with liking a girl that is out of reach (I've been there and it sucks), and Hal is dealing with a crazy woman right now.

Justin and Joe have never experienced this before, and I don't know if I want to talk to Andy about it. I just know when my friends talked about it, I would always get depressed. I would feel sorry for myself and be down. I don't want to do that, so I'm going to just write about it. (Sorry Sterling. You read this so yeah, you'll see this)

I'm off to sleep. I have never rolled over in my bed, and in my pillow, I can smell a girl's shampoo and just feel good. It's weird, but really really good.

I'm glad you still use this Sterling...

This one is just for Sterling. I just want to let you know that I am not mad at you. I miss you and I love you and I want to hang out with you. I have been blowing off a lot of people lately and it isn't because of them. I really have only seen Andy, Joel, Hal, Bear, and Molly. So I just wanted you to know right now, because there are a lot of rifts going on and I just want to be Switzerland. :D I love you!

School's fucking over. *Sigh of relief*


Damn.

I'm crushing on a girl. We'll see.

done.